At 10 years old I contemplated suicide on a daily basis. I was picked on and beat up everyday for being for being overweight. I had been diagnosed with a disease in turn forcing me to be prescribed extremely high doses of medication. I could not control the rapid weight gain and I quickly reached 180 lbs. at 10 years old. I was very active and played every sport available, but was often overlooked or undermined because of my size. I escaped the verbal and physical abuse from bullies in my artwork because it was something that they could not take away from me.
One particular day returning home from school with an art project I was so proud of that I had made for my mom, one of the bullies attacked me on the bus and destroyed my artwork. I had had enough, locked myself in my room and sat on the edge of my bed with a knife to my wrist. I wanted to end all the hate that I thought people had for me and the pain that I was going through. In my heart I knew that I was a good person and would never want anyone else to feel what I felt. Why was this happening to me?
I thought about my parents and how I would be the biggest disappointment to them. At that moment, I made a promise to God and to myself that if He gave me the strength to overcome this that I would never again let anyone beat me mentally or physically. I closed the knife and got down on the floor and started doing push ups and sit ups.
I would never change what I went through or any of the pain that I experienced throughout that time because it has made me the person I am today. I am an extremely competitive person with myself, always demand the most out of myself and I always try to put other people's feelings first because you never know what they may be going through.
I have combined my passions for Fitness, Sports and Artwork to create BuckleyBear Apparel. The Name and Logo are inspired by my dog and best buddy because he is the epitome of unconditional love and is the wildest, craziest, goofiest friend anyone could wish for!